cause i'm real, and i can't go on without you

today i just felt like writing. i have a lot going on in my head right now so i have no idea where this post is going to take me. my apologies in advance for its lack of entertainment value...i think it's funny how quickly God can change your plans. i can have so many ideas of how i imagine my life should play out, and those can be so quickly pulled out from under me.  obviously this has happened to me recently, like it has so many times in the past, but this time i feel differently. usually i get angry and resentful. i question and doubt, but for some reason at this moment, i actually feel okay about it. am i scared of the future? not going to lie, yeah i am, a lot. but i am finally starting to get a better grip on my own faith and can rest completely in my Savior.  my relationship with him is the most important.  on top of that, my friends rock. seriously ya'll are the best in the world, and each one of you means so much to me.  no matter how crazy life is or how stressed i get ya'll are constant. thank you for that precious gift.

i know this post seems really serious, but i'm actually kinda relaxed. i am ready to do whatever the Lord has planned.  for example, right now that would be singing way too loudly as i type to j lo and ja rule, and let's be honest you really can't beat the "i'm real" (murder remix).  hence my post title.  kmac and i are about to go on one of our car ride adventures, and i'm not even that worried about all the work that's coming my way in school.  thank you for your peace, Fathergod.  all my praise to you.

an enriching evening

tonight consisted of a fantastic date/adventure with kmac, gymnastics, and spending my night sitting on charlie's futon for 4 and a half consecutive hours crammed into his tiny room with fifteen or so of my bestest friends. it was exactly what i needed. for some reason i seem to have turned into a worrier these days, and i'd really like that to stop.  God will do all my worrying for me, if i let Him.  i can trust His perfect plan rather than try and force my own.  next time i start complaining about all my mess, remind me of this, please!  

SO, on top of that comforting revelation, i also managed to learn several other slightly less significant life lessons thanks to an unexpected, highly intoxicated guest who graced us with his presence for the last hour or so of the night...

a.  if you wake up one morning and the girl lying next to you is far less attractive then she was the night before, slipping out without speaking to her is actually the "nice" thing to do

b.  the phrase "white whale" refers to a girl who you chase and chase but can't "nail" (thank you moby dick)

c.  to "clowndown" means waking up with a girl so unattractive it's funny, i.e. a major downgrade

d.  a couch strategically placed in the bed of a truck can make for the ideal hookup location

e.  an IHOP must be built immediately adjacent to the fraternity house. it would solve so many late night dilemmas.

oh the wisdom.

p.s. today is my half birthday!!

hallelujah

"Who is a God like you, who pardons sin and forgives the transgression of the remnant of his inheritance?  You do not stay angry forever but delight to show mercy.  You will again have compassion on us; you will tread our sins underfoot and hurl all our iniquities into the depths of the sea."  

Micah 7: 18-19

i take great comfort in the fact that no matter how many times i fall short and can't seem to get all these earthly things right, the one thing i can't mess up is that my God will love me forever.

i wanted to do it too!

i'm thankful for (in no particularly order)...

1.  loving family

2.  my guilty pleasure, the Taylor Swift song "Love Story"

3.  making it through second semester nursing school

4.  Jesus

5.  hilarious friends

6.  Christmas lights that stay up all year round

7.  Patrick the now squished dog whom I've slept with the past ten years

8.  the hundreds of pictures around my room plus my supercool roommate's painting with all my favorite colors

9.  kmac for making me think about this

10.  giraffes (duh)